you’re so courageous
the old man said to me
doing what you do, writ-
ing poetry and exposing
yourself like that
i never thought of it as
being courageous, i said
well, it is
at least to me
Disney accurately portraying what one of my biggest fears is.
you put all your hope and love and trust in someone, thinking you’ll have a future with them. you think it’s true love. but when you ask them to prove their love to you, they can’t. because they don’t fucking feel it. they don’t love you, they never did. they walk away from it completely okay while you feel your heart freeze over.
Loosing my best friend because he started falling for me & doesn’t want to risk friendship…. Sucks ass.
“Once again I surprised myself as I thought how much I should have liked it had the boy, whom a passing car had grazed, been run over instead, so that I could lift up his body, still warm and bleeding—the boy’s body and mine, a pietà—and together, already adorned with cross-shaped funeral bouquets, we could have waited for the hearse to arrive.”
From Josef Winkler’s novel Graveyard of Bitter Oranges, a torch in the darkness.
Art credit Anthony Cudahy.